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somehow i regretted wad i did yesterday, well but i cant take back my words anymore. lalala, i hope things will be over soon...

damn it man, how am i going to study when???????? everytime i open the chem or physics book i... ya...

i have decided to take on driving license! haha... i tell everyone then everyone give mi a chua tio look. LOL... my ite is also going to start soon, plus o levels. omg i suddenly so much things to study haha... gonna be very busy once school starts.

sry for making u so stress for these past few weeks. dun worry i am going to be very busy studying, maybe we really should give each other time.

damn i feel tat i am so desperate when i am doing this

once again we have to stop contacting... i regret not treating her better last time... if there is another chance, i will definately give her my full care and love. well, if onli there is a 2nd chance. this house is full of our memories... damn everytime i stay at home, i can feel tat i am really going crazy. i did wadever i could to win her back, but nth seems to work... must i really let her go? i cant seriously...

i am so sorry

happy, at least she nv stop contacting mi. she replied miiii... well, i hope not just today

haiz, just sad and misses... i just wan to chat! :(

omg i wan chat with uuuuuuuu, damn... sian...

i miss u fking badly :_(

wads left are memories, the present she gave mi and the notes she wrote to mi. well, and of course my love for her.

there was a few nights tat i dreamt tat we are tgt again... i was so happy, so glad tat everything was over. but when i wake up, i was so disappointed... how i wish tat its not just a dream.

i miss her... i really do... my mind is now full of her. i noe i should not be doing this, but i dunno i just miss her. i really wish i can see her now... although we may not be in relationship already, but i just wish to see her and talk to her.

tat night talking to her, i did not really finish wadever i wan to say to her. i still have alot to say to her... if i can talk to her again i will say....

i did not regret going into this relationship although it really saddens mi to noe tat our relationship had to end. u used to ask mi if u loss the ring will i be angry. i will always say no, cos if the ring is lost, i can replace it. if u are lost, i cannot replace it anymore. tat is also the reason y i have nv been angry with u before, cos i am really scared tat we will break up. i am really sry for not doing my part as ur boyfriend, i was not able to give u the support u need. i was not able to help u when u needed it. i'm sry...

in future when we meet or when we just talk as friends, i noe i will be jealous and sad if u already have another bf. but i just wan to noe tat u are happy...

people say when there is ups there is down. looks like my ups is over, and now is my downs. i must get through this period of time no matter wad. i believe she will not wan to see mi destroy my own life like this too. i must study hard

the precious memories will always be in my heart. i dunno, i still love u alot alot alot. just cant let go of it

tonight wad really a heart broken night, and yea i really did cry out like i have nv done before. i really cant accept this fact, ya i noe i have to accept it anyway. i also noe tat there is no forever in a relationship, but memories will last forever. i really dunno wad is going to happen after tonight. i may totally change? i may stay lost for dunno how long? i dunno, i'm just very lost now. it just happened to sudden

the bed i'm lying on everyday used to be u and mi tgt, but now... its just mi, alone.

i miss the times we had tgt. i miss it fucking badly.

will i still choose to be tgt with her if i knew this will happen?
yes i will, i will definately choose to be with her still.

i dunno, i'm really not prepared for this. wad should i do if she really... wad should i do

everywhere i go, memories just kept flashing back

once again i have became the emo boy tat had been gone for many years

the tot of losing u just makes mi cry

wad should i do if i lost u? i'm afraid...

wad should i do? i really cant lose u. y would u change ur feelings overnight? i really hate this feeling, when can this stop?

y wont u tell mi ur prob

i dun like this present u give mi at all, pls throw it away

y wont u just tell mi wad the prob is?

is god trying to bring mi to hell? all the problems just bam come clashing on mi

4th day now... yesterday night i tried my best to contact, then finally u wan to contact mi. but all u can say is mmm mm mmm dunno dunno. then i ask u if u can promise mi tat u will reply mi like how u did last time, u mmm. then today? 1 reply and tats it, no more, back to square. y? y did u suddenly become so cold to mi? its like overnight change... sunday u were still ok, then monday u suddenly became like a different person. are u hiding something?

is this whole thing just a dream?

this is making mi go mad. dun fking try to mess with mi now, i can eat someone up. wth did i do to deserve this?

today is supposed to be a happy day. the 3rd month i have been tgt with u, but it seems like today will be a bad day. suddenly ignoring mi like this? wth did i do? i should not be getting this...

current feeling : emo

its been 2 months plus, in another 10 mins plus it will be our 3rd month tgt. ever since u started school, our meet ups start to get lesser and lesser. now we can onli meet like once a week, i can onli use sms or msn to chat with u. well, u have also started to reply slower and slower and slower. izzit because i have no school and my time passes too slow, so ur reply seems slow to mi? i really dunno

so many things in my mind. all these are driving mi crazy!

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