Saturday, 29 September 2007
thinking of her all the time, dreaming of her all the time. she just came to my mind all the time. i dun mind how long i am going to wait for, as long as i can be with her. i believe tat she is worth mi waiting for, she is... no matter wad, i will wait for the day she tells mi... the answer........
posted by EmoPrince @ 5:17 pm
sian la, faster exam finish la... exam period so sian lo... cant go out ply for the time being. haiz................................
the fear in mi, the fear is taking over mi. living in the world of fear. fear tat one day i might not be able to see her, or tok to her. fear tat she will not be able to accept mi. many of my friends said tat i am stupid... i am a fool... yes, i agree... i am stupid, i am a fool. everything she said and wrote, i will nv forget them. i waited for so long, and now i think... i think i cant turn back anymore, i can onli keep waiting and waiting... waiting for the day she tells mi... ........... .............. ................. ................... ...................... ......................... ........................... ................................ .................................... .........................................
posted by EmoPrince @ 10:29 am
Friday, 28 September 2007
i am so scared, so afraid. i am so afraid tat oneday, she will tell mi tat she cant accept mi. today i dreamt of something. something tat kept mi awake the whole night. i dreamt tat she cant accept mi, she accepted one of my friend, one of my best friend. the dream was so real. i am really very afraid tat... tat the dream will come true.
posted by EmoPrince @ 4:41 pm
Thursday, 27 September 2007
jealousy came to mi once more. i hate this kind of feelings. i could not tok the whole morning, either can i laugh at all. my laughter was gone. i could not take it anymore, so i changed my seat. to the side of the class where no one is around mi. i covered myself with the curtains. i tot of it, i somehow think tat i am so selfish... so stupid... i tot of it for the whole lesson. after the lesson, i did not wan to care anymore, i joined my table with wei cong and jun zuo. forced myself to enjoy the rest of the day. during history i was like trying to laugh as much as i can lo. then after history was english. mr kwa did not come, so we were given free period. blah blah blah... then after school went to do the music presentation. after tat go and make funny videos with jun zuo, jia hui and chee meng. so damn funny lo, gonna make more. after tat around 5 plus go home liao. ........ ........ ........ ........ ........
feel so empty without her. all i can do was to think of her. whenever she is beside mi, my laughter comes back naturally. just dun understand y this could happen. i am so scared, so scared tat she will not be able to accept mi. i have been wondering, wad will i become if she cannot accept mi. i can not imagine tat, either do i wan to know wad i will become of. just hope tat oneday, i can be with her.
Wednesday, 26 September 2007
today after school went shi hui house and study. actually is study la, but in the end is ply true or dare. then the fadzli so damn lame lo. walao... like small kid sia. about 6 we go home liao.
haiz... i finally noe the feeling of jealousy. i am always watching her from afar. when i see her so... haiz... tats when jealousy came to mi. dunno y i feel tat way, but i just hate being jealous of someone. it somehow stops mi from toking or laughing. also dunno y, now adays i have been dreaming of her. everyday i wake up, the first person in my mind was HER. cant stop thinking of her.
wonder when my day will come... ................. ......... ................ .......... ..................
posted by EmoPrince @ 8:44 pm
Sunday, 23 September 2007
today 8 plus wake up, on com download "rebirthRO". gonna ply tat liao. 12noon then i went to safra to ply ply. 4 plus came back and ply rebirthRO. haiz... lv31 nia, sianz la. . .. ... .... ..... ...... ....... ........ ......... .......... ........... ............ ............. .............. ............... ................ ................. .................. ................... .................... ..................... ...................... ....................... ........................ ......................... .......................... ........................... ............................ ............................. .............................. ............................... ................................ ................................. .................................. ................................... .................................... ..................................... ...................................... ....................................... ........................................ .........................................
feel so helpless. she is troubled, but yet i cant do anything. helpless, really helpless. i am so afraid, so afraid tat oneday she will go back to him. so afraid tat oneday if she goes to to him, then... then... haiz... i cant imagine wad i will become if she goes back.
TO HER u have to give up. no matter wad. i am not saying this because i am afraid tat u will go back to him. i am truely hoping u will forget him, and get out of this shadow of yours. if u r happy, i am happy if u feel like crying, just cry out. if u need a shoulder to lean on, mine will always be available for u. (((if u dun mind))) if u r afraid tat people will say things, u can call mi out after school. i will always be there for u.
still waiting for tat day to come....... ........................................
posted by EmoPrince @ 10:11 pm
Friday, 21 September 2007
time seems to pass so slow. i was thinking so much last time, but did not noe if she have feelings for mi. i feel so crazy and stupid. whenever i see 2 person so in love, i somehow feel jealous of them. i had been wondering, when will my day come? will she accept mi? will she? i still cant get the answer. but, no matter how long its going to be, i will be waiting. waiting for tat day, to come. just hope i can see or hear her everyday, even a sms from her will make mi happy.
still waiting... ... ... ...
posted by EmoPrince @ 2:13 pm
Thursday, 20 September 2007
sian la!!! today in school keep doing stunt until injured my wrist, but still can do stunt de. in school so boring!!!
love her so much....... hope i can see or hear her sometimes...... when will my day come??? feel so tired.
dota skills... coming back.
posted by EmoPrince @ 6:56 pm
Wednesday, 19 September 2007
stupid mr zhang go ask mr fauzi come to catch wei cong and mi for defying his instruction. stupid. then after school 2.30 must go for detention. haiz... today in class nth much la, as per normal. no special things happened.
after school as told to do so, went for detention with wei cong. at there so bo liao lo, so chat with wei cong. we were sharing with each other who we love when i suddenly feel like seeing her so much. wei cong tok tok then fall asleep liao. i was really thinking so much at tat time, last 1 hour really cant take it liao so i try to go to sleep so as not to think so much. 4.30 went home and finish my art, but still haven colour. haiz... no colour pencil or wad so ever, dunno how to colour leis.
to wei cong. gd luck to u man... hope u will find ur happiness, today...
posted by EmoPrince @ 8:56 pm
Tuesday, 18 September 2007
sian la!!! stupid exam. y must we have exam, always so annoying de. haiz... faster exam finish then can go crazy plying liao. after exam the teachers all nth to teach liao, yeah!!!! exam on 1 oct, which means onli left 12 days nia, must study liao.
bleach rox to the core man. hitsukaya toushirou the 10th division captain so cute!!! lolz...
ei jorine, u really wan BBQ crab ah? i tell u something la. BBQ crab i dun have, but live crab u wan? if i give u the live crab then u go eat leis. and one more thing, dun keep emoing leis... just dun think so much la.
school is gonna be fun after exam!!! in school run around and chat chat, after school ply ply ply, then go out. ei wei cong, zi jian, wei lun and jun zuo. after exam better go train ur dota skills ho, all of u better stay overnight on tat day. zi jian, wei cong and i morning 6am jiu go out liao, who wan go then tell us ba.
posted by EmoPrince @ 7:09 pm
Sunday, 16 September 2007
dota dota dota, i can no longer be as gd as i am last time anymore, my dota feelings are getting lesser day by day. onli thing i can do now is to teach wei cong my dota skills. when can i get back my dota feelings??? something is blocking my way, and this thing is preventing mi from getting my dota feelings. i can onli feel it once a while. but hey zi jian and the rest, dun think tat u can win mi when i dun have the feelings. i can win u just like before, so stop dreaming of winning mi anymore. muhaha!!!
haiz.... to all the chinese boys in class, can u all pls stop the jayy thing? its damn irritating u noe, wads more whenever u all there jayy jayy jayy i will start somehow to... haiz, dunno how to say la. luckily i control nia. anyway jia hui thanks for helping mi all along.
sianz la, this month a bankrupt liao. omg!!!! still got 2 weeks leis, and i left onli $20 nia. haiz... this 2 weeks dun wan eat liao, eat dinner can liao. everyday onli 1 meal also dunno i can take it anot. haiz... anyway also going to exam liao, everyday after school go ply then go home study abit, no need eat de. very fast nightfall liao, at most i sleep earlier can liao.
posted by EmoPrince @ 4:50 pm
Monday, 10 September 2007
this whole holiday thinking of the match for 21st nov sia... everyday also go out with zi jian they all until very late. go out seat around nth to do, so sian.
to zi jian, wei cong, jun zuo and wei lun. erm... after exam we just need to train teamwork can liao, so no need care about wad item to buy or wad skill to add de.
haiz... after so long i finally can control my feelings liao. my laughter is back!!! haiz... but my dota skill have deproved so much during this 1 year plus. haiz... wonder how i should train back my skill. erm... those who r plying on 21st nov. sry ho, not i dun wan use vengeful spirit on 21st nov ho. is because onli 2 person in this world can make mi use this hero, so sry for tat ho.
yeah!!!!!! this few days i dun find so much hatred and anger in mi liao... more and more laugher is coming back now. yeah!!!
posted by EmoPrince @ 12:09 am
Friday, 7 September 2007
today 7.15 wake up go school for math supp, seat on the monkey bar from 8 to 9. listern to music and dunno do wad. after supp go northpoint de mac eat and chat, then eat finish le they still dun wan go home. so go playgroound seat around. haiz... whole morning so boring. after tat go home liao.
5.30 change clothe go out with friend, go marina bay eat steamboat. eat until 9 plus go walk walk around raffles place. then walk until 11 wan to take cab tat time, dunno y stupid all the cab on call de. stupid sia.... wait from 11 to almost 12 just for a cab. 12 plus reach home liao. so sianz.... my aim was to reach home at around 2 de lo. haiz....
today when on the mrt, on the way to marina bay, actually going to emo liao lo... lolz!!! think back also quite funny lo. i was listerning to i-pod then going to emo liao then the song suddenly change to those techno de. so noisy... ear so pain, walao!!! but luckily the song change in time lo, later i emo again. then jiu break my promise liao. nvm... i cont to try ba
posted by EmoPrince @ 12:44 am
Wednesday, 5 September 2007
haiz... wad is happening to mi. everytime when coming to night time, lots of hatred come to mi. and i will start to become very hungry, very very hungry. so much hatred is in mi tat i just feel like shouting at the top of my voice. the feeling is like, just suddenly have lots of energy. so much so tat i had to release them. somemore i cant sleep at all. haiz... also dunno wad is happening la, feel like i am going crazy.
to all my friends. erm... dunno how to say, but just those who i scolded for no reason recently. sorry so much... i just cant control myself, too much hatred and anger in mi. luckily happen onli at night. anyway, just sorry
as for the dota match on 21 nov. everyone, dun blame mi if on tat day i cant perform my skills. just dun have any feelings for dota liao. haiz... also dunno how to say. maybe if u ask mi face to face i will be able to tell u easier.
posted by EmoPrince @ 11:09 pm
Tuesday, 4 September 2007
today nv go out of house at all, whole day at home doing nth.... staring at the com thinking of a perfect team for the match on 21 nov. finally after so much tots, i found a perfect team. guys i will tell u all in school de, all fits u all de.
haiz... now adays alot of hatred and anger went pass mi, impatient. haiz.... dunno y la. ever since tat time i found my dota feelings back, i kept getting angry easily. hope i can gain control soon. although i am filled with hatred and anger, whenever i start to think of "her", all the hatred and anger went off. also dunno how to express this kind of feelings, just suddenly have a calm and peaceful mindset. also tats the time my dota skill suddenly improved alot, but when i stopped thinking of "her", everything went back to normal. haiz... dunno wad to do to stop the hatred and anger in mi la.
this message is to all dota players in 2N1. 21 nov is a very important match for mi and also for us. for mi is firstly because i am part of the class, secondly the zi jian go tell them i am a pro. zzz... so from now or maybe after exam to 21 nov, i will do all i can to get back the dota feelings. this is a promise from mi to u guys. tat match, full strength. ( unless on tat day i break down ) blehs
posted by EmoPrince @ 7:56 pm
this message is for "her" dun blame urself for not able to forget him. give urself more time, u will succeed in forgetting him de. believe in urself, and dun keep blaming urself for letting mi wait. its not ur fault, remember this. its not ur fault
today went to void deck study with wei lun and zi jian. thinking of dota the whole time. haiz... then the stupid zi jian there keep deesiao anyone who walk pass. lolz... we laugh like hell lo. then after tat we went to playground seat seat. nth to do so i and zi jian go kfc eat and tok, wei lun cant go so go home liao. i and zi jian was toking about the match with his friend on the day our class go chalet. i think around 21 nov ba. everyone must train hard ho... after exam got 40 plus days to train. players in are the following people.
wei cong zi jian wei lun jun zuo mi
toking about dota... although i got back the dota feeling, the skills are no longer as gd as before liao. haiz... but i will train hard de, i will get the skills back as soon as possible.
posted by EmoPrince @ 12:04 am
Sunday, 2 September 2007
yes!!! i can sense him coming back. the jiajun i lost 1 year ago is coming back. the fearless dota player, the cheerful person. the person who does not cry or anything, just laughter. killerbaby the fearless dota player!!!
since i am back, i promise u all tat u will not see mi emo or see my emotionless side again. nv!!!
2nd sebtember 2007
the return of wong jia jun >>> killerbaby!!!
posted by EmoPrince @ 7:27 pm
haiz... think its time i stop all this emoing. i am going to give myself 3 days. in this 3 days, i am going to try to stop emoing, hope i am success. hope i can find back the carefree side of mi.
today went church so bo liao, seat there do nth. haiz... going to exam liao, faster finish la. stupid exam so ma fan. nth to write liao, cont tmr ba.
posted by EmoPrince @ 5:36 pm
today went to safra and ply with my friend dota. haiz when i was plying i was actually emoing, so sry for losing 1 of the match. we plyed 3 matches altogether. the 3rd match i was killing all the way sia, dunno y suddenly got a sense of hatred pasting through mi.
after tat go home then ply computer the whole day. at night go have a drink with my friend. he told mi he send a message to her, then i was like dunno wad to tell her if she saw the message. so i sms her tat the message is my friend send de, dun care. luckily she did not see the message. heng man.... then 2 policeman came to us and check our ex-link card. lolz... stupid policeman go home sleep la, ask mi so many questions. waste my breath nia.
haiz... still thinking alot now adays, cant seems to stop thinking. i will try to stop thinking de. haiz... when can i ever stop thinking of her!!!!
posted by EmoPrince @ 2:23 am
