Thursday, 27 September 2007
jealousy came to mi once more. i hate this kind of feelings. i could not tok the whole morning, either can i laugh at all. my laughter was gone. i could not take it anymore, so i changed my seat. to the side of the class where no one is around mi. i covered myself with the curtains. i tot of it, i somehow think tat i am so selfish... so stupid... i tot of it for the whole lesson. after the lesson, i did not wan to care anymore, i joined my table with wei cong and jun zuo. forced myself to enjoy the rest of the day. during history i was like trying to laugh as much as i can lo. then after history was english. mr kwa did not come, so we were given free period. blah blah blah... then after school went to do the music presentation. after tat go and make funny videos with jun zuo, jia hui and chee meng. so damn funny lo, gonna make more. after tat around 5 plus go home liao. ........ ........ ........ ........ ........
feel so empty without her. all i can do was to think of her. whenever she is beside mi, my laughter comes back naturally. just dun understand y this could happen. i am so scared, so scared tat she will not be able to accept mi. i have been wondering, wad will i become if she cannot accept mi. i can not imagine tat, either do i wan to know wad i will become of. just hope tat oneday, i can be with her.
